For one of
my class projects I was assigned the task of taking on the role of a person
with a spinal cord injury that paralyzed both my legs for a 24 hour period.
Basically, being in a wheelchair and not able to use my legs for all the
waking hours in one day while going to college, shopping and being generally in
public places. I chose a small sport wheelchair (pictured below). My experience was very enlightening and made me more than a
little grateful that God has blessed me with two good legs for this time. To
start, it was impossible to even get into the place I rent because of steps at every
entrance. If I could have gotten in, every door is too narrow and the halls too
cluttered. If I was really in a wheelchair, I would have to move.
In a way, I felt a little like I had
become a kid again. Maybe it was because I needed to look up to everyone and
felt that people saw me as someone they wanted to protect or take care of.
However, my self-esteem really didn’t change much, since I was still very
active physically and interactive with people. I felt myself fitting into the
role and wanting to see how far I could excel in it.
The feeling and image
reminded me of times I have worn a new very distinct outfit/costume in public. Once the
realization was over that I was different my confidence seemed to blossom
because of knowing I was unique. There was no way to hide that I was unusual,
but if I could be comfortable in my “new clothes” (the wheelchair) people were
very positive and even had a kind of respect for me being different. It was
difficult at the grocery store though. I started to feel frustrated when a lady
apologized in an irritated voice for going through the double entry doors at
the same time as I when there was plenty of room for both of us. Another lady
moved aside in an isle with kind of a frown on her face giving me the
uncomfortable feeling of being in the way. I guess normally I would have just
marked it off to each having a bad day, but in a wheelchair, I found myself
taking things a little more personally. Then it was hard to see over the
checkout to view the clerk, and nearly impossible to hear him since I couldn’t
see his face well and he was a mumbler. Still overall, I found other people’s
attitudes toward me reflected my own. If I looked frustrated people avoided me,
but if I was happy and energetic even though I was in a wheelchair I got a very
positive response especially from those sitting down (perhaps because I was on
their level) and those in the park.
Since I knew I was going to do this
project ahead of time, I did some extra push-ups during the couple weeks before
to prepare, so my arms held up very well. They did get quite a work out though.
Normally, I can walk for miles and miles, but going down the boardwalk (Lake
Walk) near the harbor for only about a mile had my left shoulder in pain for a
little bit. Even hardly noticeable little hills were a challenge, and the ramp
to get to the new building at college was a real trial (It’s a good thing there
is a rest in the middle) as was the driveway up to my house. No one with weak
arms could ever maneuver either of them.
I have to admit, I was quite proud
of myself for being able to figure out how to transfer in and out of my car
plus get my wheelchair in and out without any help from my legs. At first, I
didn’t think it was possible, but I found that I could use my hands to throw my
legs in and then transfer my self with just my arms. To get the Wheelchair in,
I twisted to disassembled it next to my door, put the wheels in the back seat
and then moved my seat as far back as it would go so I could squeeze the chair
between me and the steering wheel to the passengers side. I almost got kind of
good at it by the end of the day, but it sure took a lot longer to get
anywhere.
So in conclusion, I now have a
greater respect for anyone who is mobile and functional even with a healthy
upper body like I have. Everything takes longer, there is more obstacles to
overcome, and personal attitude seems to make even more difference on how you
are treated by others. It was a good project, but I am very glad I am back to
using my own two good legs. :)
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